For the last few years, I have led a group from my church in cooking and serving supper 4 times a year at a local outreach center. We have 2 other groups, so together we cover one day a month. Yesterday may have been my last time.
We had someone who is still going to our church, but is feeling similar to how I do, uncomfortable, and not wanting to go to any more meetings, but plans on hanging in there, even though she's also missed some church. There was someone who was asked to do mission work at a new church, not far from the current one, where many of the disgruntled people have been going, so goes there now. There was a family who goes to a different denomination now. There was a couple, new to the church, and who I don't know well, so I don't know how they are feeling about things. I do know they are attending, because they told the one family they'd see them in church.
Some of the regulars in the group were attending Dare to Share with their teens, and one was out of town, so we barely had enough there. It felt good serving God with these people. We agreed we'd like to stay as a group, even if we are going to different churches. I think the others who couldn't make it would agree. The board chair for the 3 groups said it would be OK if we still served, and she would find someone to lead it if I decided I was going to change churches.
I am not going back to the church I visited the last two weeks, because I found out there is something major I disagree with them on. I don't know where God will lead me, and it very well could be back to my church. I am missing people there, but I just can't be around the tension right now. In the letter I wrote to our Pastor and elders, I asked for forgiveness for staying away for awhile, because I feel there are people I am letting down. We really do have a lot of awesome people, who live by their faith. Also, there are some things others know that the rest of us do not, and they feel led by God to do what they are doing, so I can't assume they are trying to cause problems for others. I just know that the Bible says we are to forgive.
When all is said and done, we all need to be willing to forgive each other. Like Pam said recently, people who don't like how others do things will share the same heaven. She said something like that, anyway.
What is happening now, is that God is drawing me to himself. I am not worrying about the church decision. As I was working yesterday, I thought about the situation, and asked God where he wants me to go to church. I felt a peace come over me, and it seemed He was letting me know that it could be awhile before I know where I am supposed to be, but it's OK.
I am thankful to have this community of Christian women in blogland. Bless you all!
(The pic was taken at January's meal, when I was covering in the absence of a leader for that group.)