I have noticed this week, that I am not beating up on myself when I have a negative thought, and then I notice that, and am able to let the incorrect thought go. I then pray for others in the study, and feel like I am being prayed for. I do still have incorrect thoughts aplenty, though. When I read ch. 3, I felt like I kept reading about myself, and I noticed the self condemnation come back some. I am hypersensitive, and read things into others' actions at times, like thinking it's because of what I said to someone the day before that she and another did not eat their lunch in the same room I did the next day. I have also felt certain actions or lack of actions on my husband's part showed he did not care for me like I think he should. I felt a bit uneasy reading this, but it made lots of sense to me.
Last week, there were several of us who honed in on Jennifer's statement about us not being able to remove hurtful thoughts, but by the power of God, they can be drained of their potential control over us. I marked up lots of things in chapter 3, and find it difficult to select one that stood out to me. I have also based my sense of worth on what I perceived my performance to be, and felt that nothing I did was good enough. God has already worked with me on these things, and they do not have the hold on me they used to, but they try to creep back in from time to time.
I have prayed for wisdom over the years. I need to continue to, and to reverence God and esteem his truth. He is there to help us all! I am so thankful for his love and forgiveness.
I forgot to set this to be posted Tuesday, and to mention this is hosted by Lelia at Write From the Heart. She has a list of others participating in this study.