I didn't get enough sleep to function well, so I called in sick today. God is really ministering to me through Bible reading, music, and when I went upstairs to sort some laundry, there was a radio show I hadn't heard before, called "Hope for the Heart" with June Hunt. It was about reasons for procrastinating, one of which is being a people pleaser. I have had issues with that all my life. That's why I was the "good" girl when I was young. She quoted verse after verse of some of the passages God has led me to mark up in my Bible. I'll try to get them in my side bar soon. I know one of them was Psalm 27, where it talks about who is man that I should be afraid.
I was going to make this short. Anyway, thanks for any prayers, and I don't think it is time to go to a different church, even if it would mean I was "happier" there. I have ministries where I am that God has given me, and I can trust him for how he's going to heal our church, or lead me somewhere when it's time. Also, I'm not sure how many there are like me who are making efforts to reach out to all members, and not take any sides. The fact that I won't take the side of the one group, though, may put me in the other group in their eyes, but I just have to let God sort it out. I really don't have all the information of what has happened in the past, and who still needs to forgive whom. All I know, is forgiveness is not an option, and those who are not giving financially, are not understanding that it's God and his ministries they are shorting, not the Pastor.
"Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. Do not repay evil with evil, or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing. For, 'Whoever would love life and see good days must keep his tongue from evil and do good; he must seek peace and pursue it. '
1 Peter 3:8-11
The last part, in quotation mark is part of a passage taken from Psalm 34, so it's in the Bible twice.